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On this mega I shall take the opportunity to rant about one of my favorite things: the Webnovel UNJUST DEPTHS!
Do you love transgenders?
Do you love communism?
Do you love queer romance?
Do you love killing fascists in a giant fucking mech?
Would a plotline with all of these things happening in a underwater retro-futuristic gundam setting intrigue you?
Especially if its actually really well written with good characters, rich worldbuilding, and a marxist leninist transfem author?
All of the answers should be: YES I DO or else I WILL BAN YOU
Since you obviously love all of those things then Unjust Depths is perfect for YOU yes YOU! It is DESTINY
The Imbrian Ocean is at a time of severe instability. The monarch of the vast Empire that spans its unjust depths (:3) is sick and nearing death, every territory of the ocean now vying to carve their own Destiny out of the chaos. From the Volk fascists 
, Zionists 
(they literally will not die why are they still here oh my god), The ‘Anarchists’ (social chauvanists) 
in Bosporus, and the monarchs 
of each vast noble domain, each vies for power and prestige no matter who they crush underfoot, but it would be a pretty depressing story without a bright light in the dark.
On the edge of the Empire sits the glorious Union! The (Soviet) Union 
is a socialist federation of three states (and one anarchist mountain 
)that were formerly slave colonies under the Imbrian Empire until they broke away in a fierce liberation war. They have spent the last 20 years since then building themselves up. Whether they be Human 
, Shimmi 
(Catgirls who usually follow a religion closely related to modern Islam), and Kattaran 
(a hybrid humanoid species with characteristics of sea life ranging from sharks to cuttlefish)building socialism side by side.
First lead under the revolutionary leader Dashka Kansal, then the Idealist Ahwalia who lead the country to near ruin in pursuit of building a utopia on pillars of sand, then under the scientific socialist 
leadership of the Grand Marshall of the Union, Bhavani Jayanskar (I love Jayanskar so much shes basically as if Stalin, Lenin, and Zhukov were rolled into the same person but was a black lesbian badass who wore the uniform REALLY WELL)(she aint the main character at all tho shes only in very few scenes i just love her so much). Under Jayanskar, the Union has been growing their economy to both eliminate hunger and give everyone a home 
, but also growing their military capabilities for the inevitable return of the Empire. The Union is alone, but with the people by its side nothing, not even Destiny, can snuff out true freedoms light. 
As war wages between the Empire and Republic (basically underwater USA) once more over the lands between them, the facade begins to finally crack…
And a border conflict between the Empire and Union escalate, and the dreaded reconquest begins.
Amidst this turmoil, lives our main characters (yes there are multiple and all of them are lovely). Each of whom I personally love dearly, and are very well characterized. Many are soldiers of the Union, some are scientists, some are divers (mech pilots), some are lost strands finding new meaning after joining this band of Brigands
All are Communists 
All serve the Union 
All would gladly give their lives to defending socialism 
but even they would have little inkling of the adventure set in store for them as the lands beneath the waves erupt in fire, fury, and revolt
Can these transgender badasses kick fascist ass?
Can they kiss? (oh my god please kiss ISTG THERE IS SO MUCH SHIPPING AHHHH ITS GLORIOUS)
FIND OUT HERE: https://unjustdepths.com/
please do or else I will pout incessantly
just try it pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase i need to talk to someone about it after Cromalin went AFK
(I miss her, she was a real one)
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Long ass “dump the stuff that’s weighing on my brain out into writing” post
mental health stuff, alcohol cessation, social withdrawal/APD? Not sure what to tag for that last one
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Have been really anxious and having a lot of trouble with sleep lately and irritability lately and feeling burned out and having a short fuse, but I’ve been trying to practice shit I’ve learned from therapy before and separate impulsive thoughts and negative automatic thinking patterns from my sense of self (like, not “ugh I’m such an irritable miserable bitch” but “I have a lot of difficult shit to deal with and it’s understandable that someone in my position would be frustrated and have a short fuse sometimes and that isn’t some inherent flaw in my character,” etc)
Trying to be appreciative of little things that go well or I enjoy or make me notice improvement in myself
-Have stayed dry for more than a month for the first time this year. Feel like I’ve turned a corner mentally where I just associate alcohol with how awful I felt after my last binge and feel repulsed by booze now because of that association instead of still craving it sometimes after previous attempts staying sober after getting through withdrawals. Was offered some red wine at a dinner and turned it down. I probably would have drank it in the past rationalizing it as “just one glass in a social setting” and “not a big deal,” then basically doing the Barney Gumble “it begins” thing and relapsing afterwards with vodka, and I didn’t and wasn’t really even tempted, so go me.
-Have been better about skincare. Found a moisturizer that agrees with my sensitive gay baby skin and am pretty happy about that. Instead of stinging my face, it doesn’t bother me going on, then like gradually turns into the skin equivalent feeling of the nice glow feeling your mouth gets from a pleasantly spicy food? If that makes sense?
-Got some nice music recs I’m looking forward to checking out and have revisited some albums I really like that I haven’t listened to in years and had a good time remembering
-Have been thinking about how to spend the money I’ve saved quitting drinking and am considering getting a mid gaming PC (the newest vidya I’ve played is X360 stuff lol) and/or music gear (either a lunchbox low watt tube guitar amp or a modeling rig) that’s kind of exciting to me
-Mentally am trying to work through some of my hermit tendencies and whether I have avoidant personality disorder and how to work through that. Learned that a once very close friend that I fell out of touch with during covid that I learned is going through some really rough shit and is depressed and I’m struggling with how to approach reaching out to. The longer I’ve been out of contact with someone, the harder it is for me to think of how to try reconnecting and I feel extremely guilty and sad for how we lost contact. I still deeply care for this friend and felt like they were like the sibling I never had, we just intuitively understood each other in a way I’ve never had with anyone and were the first friend I made after coming out who only ever knew me as me not (dead name.) I want to rekindle our friendship but I feel so guilty for drifting away from them in the first place that thinking about how to make contact again after years feels so overwhelming and I feel like however that goes I’d probably have an ugly crying type meltdown.
Thanks for reading my bullshit if you made it this far lol, sorry for the wall of text and diarypost
i wanna go on a canal boat
I need to get a relatively quick medical certification before I fucking die I hate working in the treat industry
sad, I guess? No, maybe its happy...
I just checked my email and it turns out that a former roommate and long time friend that I haven’t seen since I left the city bought me some games. I’m not crying you’re crying
For the people who asked for mini pics a few days ago, here are the last two I did.
My Painted Minis
The first one is the mini of the month. It was supposed to be a joke mini as the theme for this mini from my store was supposed to be camo. I was going to poorly paint it in Ultramarine colors, put an awkwardly painted omega and write “Ultrahumies” on it. I know it’s AoS, but I wanted to have fun. But it turned out very nicely, so I just ran with it. It’s one of my better paint jobs for sure.
Not fond of the second one. Kept the colors flat as I didn’t want to mix up proper highlights and the like for that color of blue. It turned out fine, but it’s really flat and I hate it. I’m not gonna go back and fix it.
https://hexbear.net/comment/5412664
my trans anime recommendations
I’m eating my words from a bit ago. TesseracT’s War of Being is a great album, and deserves to be held with Monuments’ In Stasis, and not with Periphery’s P5.
Mst3k is staying at a seedy diner right before closing and squinting at the 30yo tv in the corner with the last few people still eating
Rifftrax is walking into the guest room at the family Christmas gathering and seeing your uncle from out of state and his friends reclining on its disproportionately fancy bed watching hbo channels that you only get with premium cable
Best Of The Worst is your de facto night shift at some stereotypical blue collar job that you just spend watching another 30yo tv in the break room full of rusty metal furniture and chipping paint with your coworkers
The hoodie that I really wanted is sold out in my size. I was able to find a different one that I also like, but it’s twice as expensive and the accent color is different so I have to modify some other parts of the outfit as well.
Really excited to see it come together though! Now I just have to wait for all the pieces to arrive.
My girlfriend and I made each other playlists. That’s my type of gay shit
I think I already did some cubeposting a little bit ago so I’ll try to not repeat myself. If I didn’t or you missed it, I love solving the rubik’s cube, lot of patterns, very step by step and methodical, feedback (both knowing how I can do better and the tactile feedback of the cube), stimming, yaknow all good things.
I’m trying to learn f2l. Right now I’m just solving with beginners method, very basic and boring. The basic idea is you solve the white edge pieces first, then insert the white corners where they belong, solving the first/white layer. To solve the second layer, which is just four edge pieces, you first position the edge piece on top, then move the corner it lines up with out and connect them, before inserting both pieces solved. After you do that for all the edges you’ve got the first two layers solved. This whole process is obviously slow, even having it down very well there’s a lot of wasted moves and even worse, cube rotations.
f2l, short for first two layers, is solving the white corners and the second layer edges at the same time. I had put off learning it because there’s a lot of unique cases. (where and in what orientation each piece is currently in, each case has its own algorithm to solve). There’s a few ways to definite how many there exactly are, most cubers will say 41 f2l cases, but there are more, at least 36 others that can be good to know sometimes. Because I don’t actually know f2l yet I can’t give a great explanation of the cases, but I believe its something to do with how solved it is already. If all the other edges and corners are solved, there’s less places you might need to yoink a piece from.
It looks like, watching this beginner/intuitive f2l video, that I won’t be bruteforce learning the cases though, you start out with four insertion algorithms (I already know two of them), and there’s a few steps to remember instead of learning every combination of cases. We’ll give it a shot, obviously it is learnable I just need to try.
I did some hacky shit at the beginning of this project that didn’t cause any problems until right now, the weekend before it’s due
I’ve just realized how disappointing Honkai Impact was when it actually has a pretty good premise. A hack and slash game where lesbians kill mechs, beasts, zombies, constructs, man-made horrors beyond comprehension, and that one guy. You can collect different characters, and different versions of these characters that have a different playstyle, while also equipping them with items that can change the gameplay even more. The story even has potential, realizing that you’ve been working for the wrong people, getting stabbed in the back, lesbian drama, etc.
Of course, the game has to have so many faults. It has absurd levels of fan-service in both gameplay and character design, it’s a gacha/live-service game, because of live service the story has to go on and on and on and become bland and stretched out, power creep eliminates characters and playstyles constantly in favor of new metas that are required to play the game successfully, grinding the same content every day to get these items so that the game can be played successfully, etc.
Learn your lesson, society. We could have had something great, a hack and slash legend, but instead we have gacha trash and something that I definitely put way too much time into.
forest gump modern remake where he helps an Al Queda operative get to the airport on time for their ‘very important flight’ in Boston to New York
I feel much more relaxed in school now, with classmates who are 5-6 years younger than me, than I ever did when I was in school around people my own age. It’s easier to chit chat, I don’t quite understand but I enjoy it
