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  • rainn [they/them, she/her]@hexbear.net
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    6 days ago

    I’m still deciding whether to start HRT or not, I probably will (still figuring gender out), but my main fear is that I don’t want to give up my ‘lean’ muscle build, I like how they look, also passive self defense from fash

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        6 days ago

        Good to know, I’m horrible at keeping schedules once interrupted tbh, right now I’m tired and I haven’t went to the gym in a month as my current schedule doesn’t allow it and my gym is far away

        • MusicOwl [comrade/them, sie/hir]@hexbear.net
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          The muscle goes away quite a bit faster once you’re estrogen dominant, and the potential highs of strength are lower, but you absolutely can keep your muscles.

          I rock climb regularly and have been on HRT for the length that allows me to perform with the cis, and I still am quite muscular for a woman. I love it.

            • QueerCommie [comrade/them, she/her]@hexbear.net
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              I can’t say I feel less dead inside, but I feel less shit otherwise when I’ve exercised. I understand it’s hard to get the motivation when you don’t have a dog to walk or a team you’re on. Idk.

            • MusicOwl [comrade/them, sie/hir]@hexbear.net
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              YMMV, but HRT has definitely helped me feel a lot less dead inside. So much so that

              past si

              I haven’t felt any suicidial ideation in over a year at this point, while before it was a nigh constant phenomenon.

              E is not a magic bullet, but it is something that can mark a marked positive difference in your life. I hope this helps.

              Feel free to ask us all if you have any questions too!

    • Tommasi [she/her]@hexbear.net
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      I wasn’t sure how I was going to feel about the muscle loss, but in a weird way it was kinda healing for me. I “naturally” lean towards skinny, which I often felt really insecure about as a guy, and the years before I transitioned I’d spent a lot of effort on eating more and going to the gym to get bigger. When I started HRT I fell back to pretty much the same weight as my pre-gym days very fast, and it was honestly so cathartic to final allow myself to be happy about being small after it caused me so much insecurity earlier in my life.

      The self defense thing does just kinda suck though. I hate that I don’t feel safe walking alone at night any more, and that whenever I go out with my friends I need to have a plan for how to get back to my apartment safely. But on the other hand, being in a group has always been much better for self defense than muscles, so maybe I was just an idiot before.

      I know a non-binary transfem who is on a moderate does of E without an androgen blocker, so if keeping most of your muscle is really important to you, maybe you could consider something like that. I don’t really know how it works though, just that there exists other hormone treatments than the traditional mtf or ftm routes.

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        I was anorexic when I was younger cause I didn’t want to “look girly” funnily enough lol, now I’ve bulked like 30kg but I’m still ‘lean’, though I like the muscle.

        Muscles aren’t good for defense, just appearances and passive intimidation, which is what I use. But hell that doesn’t work either most of the time, cause if you break heteronormative standards you still get immediately looked down upon

        Ooh that sounds interesting, I will research it more, thanku