I hate how cheap alcohol is. It’s always have 50 cents for a shot around here, so I always have the money for it. Whatever quarters are in my purse is my alcohol fund. It feels like just being drunk and hiding it from everybody is the best path. I stopped taking my anti-psychotic days ago. I’m fucking up a lot of progress I made right now. Alcohol doesn’t make me angry or anything like that, it just makes me recenter my entire life around it. It makes me only care about getting more drunk. I hate everything rn. Sorry for the rant guys, I just really needed to get it off my chest.
Funny how they still fight to keep cannabis illegal in places, but there’s never any question of how accessible alcohol is.
It sucks and I’m sorry. But even being aware of the pattern while you’re in it means that you’ve made some progress.
I wish you the best, comrade.
History has portrayed alcohol with a good time. You don’t even want to know what weed was portrayed as. Why it became a class 1 drug.