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That sounds like a really shit situation, you’re doing a really good thing for someone and I’m sorry it feels shitty
Thankfully, that night was the worst of it, and they were much more stable in the morning. They angrily knocked over some stools and stuff, so could have been a lot worse. They did break a light bulb, but like, deliberately? Apparently something they do as a coping method, and they collect the internals. (They were really apologetic about it, but like, if you need to break a lighbulb to cope with that shit, you go right ahead, you know?) I was concerned for them but not for myself, pretty much. Like I said, they were much more stable in the morning and we made a plan to move them in with their grandmother, a somewhat estranged father, and their brother. Took them over yesterday, they should be much better off with family they moatly know and love, and a much more familiar environment. All in all things qent about as well as they possibly could have. I think they expected me to be upset and angry with them and basically kick them out, they seemed surprised when life went on like normal the next morning. (I’ve pretty much been there, my depressive episodes usually involved collapsing into a puddle on the couch, but I did get more manic ones and I coped by running myself ragged. Good to reduce your energy and somehow feels self-destructive while not really being so). So, all in all, I think everything resolved as well as it could have, and we’re still friends. Dealing with that on top of being nastily sick was really rough but I think I weathered it well.
You sound like a lovely person to have around and it sounds like you’ve really helped someone in need. I hope you were able to take some time for yourself and recuperate etc. Wishing you all the best in the future x
Still dealing with a bunch of health issues and some stuff at work so things still suck for me, and I missed some antidepressant doses is the chaos so it’s hitting me harder than usual. Things will get better, I know they will, they just need some time to stabilize again. I try to be the kind of peraon I want to see in the world, while trying to keep healthy boundaries for myself. I have a much too negative perception of myself, and I kind of have to take it on faith that it’s not accurate, and things like this help give me something tangible I can point myself to, you know? Thanks for taking the time to chat about this, I appreciate it
My dm’s always open to chat :). You sound like the kind of person I’d like to see more of in the world. And it sucks that being a person who goes out of their way to help others is so often comorbid with having a (usually undeserved imo) negative perception of themselves. Do you the story about the Persian king who offered great rewards to anyone who could make him feel hopeful when he is sorrowful and ground him when he is elated? ( I’m paraphrasing and butchering the story somewhat)