elon monkey would still call it twitter and probably be nice to grimes
I’m fading looking at my notes
So tired of never letting go
I’m living with an emptiness
elon monkey would still call it twitter and probably be nice to grimes
getting new glasses soon pog
the “sexism at me?? 😀” to “sexism at me… 😒” pipeline
GOOD. Until I hear otherwise I’ll believe that
hoping to see many more videos of missles raining down
Unrelated, but I was sheepishly asked what my HRT situation is like and if I were thinking about getting on T. How many ways can a fem presenting person say, no, I’m absolutely still happy with being a woman. Even the most knowledgeable cis people still suffer with cis brainrot
Phalloplasty
The surgeon was very confident about creating the phallus itself and my arm is indeed a good candidate - that’s good. My arms are pretty thin, so I’m also hoping this will avoid the indent that comes from the transition from skin to scar after surgery. I really do not want an arm scar. It upsets me tbh, but there are such drawbacks to each technique that RFF (forearm) is my preferred method. Thigh would be too thick for me, shoulder gives no tactile sensation, abdominal is low to no erotic sensation. RFF gives the most in tactile and erotic sensation and can be a small(er) dick too. All results can look good, but I’m so consistently impressed with RFF results.
In previous communication, he said both urethra lengthening (UL) and scrotoplasty were higher risk and there’s not much of any published research or methods for this post vaginoplasty. Today he said neither would be possible, but I pushed back and reminded him that he said there’s a chance, so he conceded there is a chance. I probably did a bad thing, but I let him know that I’m willing to take on the risk because not even trying is not worth continuing to live imo (I said it nicer than that). He wants to talk to my therapist to make sure I’m in a good place in case things do not work out (losing scotum, UL fail, etc).
If I can’t get scrotoplasty, I can’t get an erectile device. Unlike my willingness to look for a path in a post-failed UL world, I will not look for a path without an erectile device. Nobody really likes to hear me say that, but it’s my life and I’m the only one who has to live every day with what’s on my body. I hope he finds some optimism after talking to his urologist, my therapist, and me again. He also wants me to talk to his urologist soon too.
There are other surgeons as well, but not as many my insurance covers currently and if I’m being honest I’m so worn down. I’d like it to be where this all happened in the first place. It makes sense symbolically. Speaking of symbolism, the very last item related to surgery/recovery that I didn’t throw away was my dilators. They give you them when you leave the hospital. I hate those things so much and the dumpster outside my apartment didn’t feel strong enough to get them away from me. So I held onto them until today and threw them away in a trash can in the hospital. Begone.
Now back to waiting
I actually am pretty fond of my appearance overall these days
having a vagina makes me feel so unfeminine and so gross in my body that I struggle to feel connected at all. I have to spend the majority of my day trying to forget I have it
fuck this stupid ass thing. my hatred of it is so pure. I didn’t know anything could make me feel so dead inside
oo yes price is so good! I could listen to that on loop quite a while. favourite in p5 for me would probably be when mother was there
also I agree about the shift in dungeon style being much needed. I’m excited to see how they evolve it again in p6
If you specifically just hated the straight forward grind of the dungeons, then you definitely wouldn’t find Tartarus more enjoyable. Have you played Persona 5? That is a bit better in that regard
I definitely like Port Island better than Inaba as a location, but I’m also just more of a city person anyway. In terms of story, I agree that it’s definitively better and the stakes are really felt as things go on. It’s pretty bleak when everyone around seems to have apathy syndrome and things are just generally falling apart in the end. I also like that the team isn’t immediately super close with each other. They all struggle with things that isolate them from each other, so it’s nice when they start to push past that. Persona 3 also has my favourite OST of all time
It’s not that I don’t like 4. I think they went for a completely different vibe and pretty much stuck the landing. Things are more wholesome, characters connect so much quicker, it all feels so much more slice of life - which is so not MegaTen lol. Anyway, there are times where I’m in the mood for that and it hits just right. I generally like the characters a lot and appreciate their friendship more than anything. I definitely don’t feel the same tension as the mystery goes on, which is unfortunate. That could have been balanced in a way that hit harder. I mean I figured there was no way they’d ever kill Nanako, but written differently I might not have been so sure. Anyway, I have nothing but love for both games and they rank high on my list (as do the other games in the series)
I would strongly argue for Persona 3 being goated
it’s miles ahead of Persona 4.
depending on how you’re judging a game, that’s not so difficult :p
that’s unfortunate about dragging on though. I do like JPRGs with a longer story, but so many just pad for no reason. typically I don’t have that issue with MegaTen games. also, hacking a 3ds is based and good. the only physical copies of games I have for mine is Fire Emblem or MegaTen (and Radiant Historia). I like physical copies of series that I’m fond of, but that ends with Metaphor lol. I could import a physical copy for ps4, but tbh I’d play it more if I had it on pc
iconic design. I’m somewhat partial to black frost because I usually keep him in my roster for so long
I’ve heard really good things! I’m guessing you enjoyed it a lot?
I haven’t been as good with spinoffs and I’m trying to fix that lol. I have all of the 3ds releases, so I could easily just play it in bed too. maybe I’ll start doing that a bit every night
oh I feel like that very much depends on what type of game you’re looking for. SMT V is quite a leap in terms of the overworld itself, exploration, and refining the press turn system too. the original version of V is a bit loose on story, tho the re-release (V: Vengence) fixes that quite a bit. I think there’s more than enough story to justify playing through the original story fwiw and Da’at is a really cool world to explore. IV is much more the traditional MegaTen vibe in terms of overall gameplay and doesn’t benefit from the quality of life improvements that have been standardized over the last decade since it’s release. the story is very strong though and it’s a really great experience.
curious on how you were feeling about both games when you last played them?
I actually own the 3ds version too lol, I’ve just put it off forever cause I keep replaying other games. I’ll do that after my current persona 4 run. trying to beat everything I have going before metaphor comes out
really in an appreciating my girlfriend mood. she doesn’t use hex, but shout out to her