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  • Ceedoestrees@lemmy.worldtoADHD@lemmy.worldInfuriating appointment today
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    11 days ago

    The treatment gauntlet is brutal. I’ve done illegal drugs before, but now I just microdose mushrooms in addition to my prescribed stims, which were legal the last place I lived, where my psyche knew about and okay’d it, but not here. They wanted me to come to the hospital daily to get my meds and take weekly piss tests. I average about one alcoholic drink a week, so it’s fucking ridiculous knowing people who get wasted three times a week who have no problems getting meds.

    It’s hard to get help because medical doctors are just people who won the birth lottery for financial stability and they’re skilled at rote memorization. They don’t have to be smart or better than average at their jobs.









  • Ceedoestrees@lemmy.worldtoWikipedia@lemmy.worldKayak angst
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    24 days ago

    Once you get out some distance, you know you’re in this little boat and the only way you’re getting back is by your own strength. See a whale breach and you’re like fuck, the ocean is big, the waves are big, there’s a big old tail of a monster just hanging out over there.

    You’re nothing to the ocean, the weather and the animals that live here. The current shifts, the wind changes or you get a cramp in your shoulder and all of a sudden you know you aren’t making it back by sundown because you cut it too close. The kayak will be fine in open water, it can take waves easy, it’s getting jammed up on a rock or a log you didn’t see against a current that can be hairy.

    You could head out to a new spot on a whim only to realize the riptide shifts hard with the tide and for some reason you’re going sideways fast. Or something hard bounces against the bottom of your boat and you have no idea what because the water is 80ft deep there. It’s probably a submerged log, but the water’s dark and you’re alone so your mind goes places.