Idk what to do. I might be trans, might just be someone who wants to look cute and I can’t tell the difference anymore. Also permanently transitioning will come at great personal cost and might be a unique safety issue. Also I never had any dysphoric thoughts before 26-27y of age. I’m 31 now I’ve lived most of my life as a straight man maybe just keep going lmao. But I do have gender envy for days. Point being why now. Also it’ll break my mother’s heart if she so much as sees me in a skirt. Dad’s too lol. Say what you will about ‘that’s on them, not your problem, transphobes bad’ I can’t help but love and care about them, they’ve really tried as parents. they’re just heavily indoctrinated old ppl with calcified brains.
How do you define dysphoric thoughts?
I didn’t think I had dysphoria until I put on a dress and stopped normalizing it, at 44.
Here’s some reflection after the fact. Hated puberty. Hated getting hair all over. Never felt like a man, always a boy. Never really enjoyed penetrative sex, always felt weird to me but I did it anyway because I thought I was supposed too. Preferred my head hair long but often wore it short for safety. Preferred pink but never allowed myself to wear it because of safety. Reoccurring dreams where I’m a woman. Preferring to play women in RPGs, as long as I wasn’t being bullied for it. The list goes on.
But the mind can be quite adapt at hiding from itself . It’s an adaptation to survive bullying. When I started accepting that I was genderqueer and likely trans, the puzzle pieces started to fit.
Another excellent way to tell if you have gender dysphoria, is if you get gender euphoria when you allow yourself to be yourself.
And so far, I only cracked my egg last month, that euphoria has been a guiding light for me out of a lifetime of depression, anxiety, and general self hatred.
Sorry your parents are religious. My family is not and it’s still been difficult for them to accept. It’s been difficult for me to accept too, as there is a lot of misinformation about what it is to be trans. A lot of gas lighting and gatekeeping from people who want to pretend that we don’t exist.
But the joy I feel being myself is worth it. And as my family sees my joy, they come to accept that this is real.
Oof owwie, stop that hurts.
Woah thanks so much for sharing. I’ve felt a lot of these things at one time or another. (Except the part that I do enjoy penetrative sex but not more than other stuff, I wouldn’t wanna lose pp function tbh) I’m so glad your family has come around and you feel joy being who you are
It’s mostly trying to cum that feels like a chore. And feeling like I should check in every two minutes with my gf to make sure she’s still comfortable. It’s physically pleasurable but emotionally a chore.
I don’t like receiving oral for the same reasons.
Both are a lot more enjoyable when I can let go of that. But overall I think I’d prefer to own a strap-on over a cock.
Okay yeah it definitely feels that way at times
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You might know this already but not only do many trans people enjoy insertive sex, but you can also keep your downstairs functioning as it is on hormones very easily ✨
Also I should have said, testosterone cream is an option. I do have some attachment to keeping it. I don’t know if I will or not.
But I’ve looked at options. And testosterone cream will help maintain function.
Interesting. I read about that too. I guess first things first though, need to find horse piss dealer
Relate so much to this. Probably the biggest proof to shut up my lingering egg denial…
I’m glad you’ve finally been able to become who you are!
Thanks! I scheduled an appointment to look at starting hormones. I’m very lucky to have Medicare and good gender affirming care through my health care conglomerate. Only have to wait 19 more days for the appointment!