yewler [she/her]

All I can think about right now is estrogen and how much I want it in me. I was supposed to be on my way to getting scheduled for an HRT consultation, which they said would probably be in January, but it’s been several weeks and I haven’t heard anything from them. I don’t even have an appointment scheduled.

Now with recent events considered, I’m questioning whether or not I should just do DIY. The issue is I’m scared of messing something up and much prefer having a doctor help me out.

I want the emotional range so bad

Huh. I actually feel gay. That’s a new one. It’s hard to describe since literally nothing’s changed except the word lesbian feels right now. I don’t have to be jealous of lesbians anymore!

I had someone I’ve never talked to visibly confused on what pronouns to use for me. Is it literally just the longer hair???

I got told one time that I’d be a cute girl if I was one and that did something to me. It’s impressive how long I was able to hold out before realizing my transness

I don’t get it

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I’m looking up at the mirror on my bedroom door and I see a girl on her bed. It’s freaking me out a bit but in a good way. This same human I’ve become so acquainted with seeing, I’m actually successfully conceptualizing her as a woman without going “ughghg but I look like a guy.” This is so bizarre, but sooooooo cool

To be fair the actual discussion did start with what was essentially a nvm lol

I can nvm lol the original nvm lol if that counts

It was something like “okay well if you ever change your mind, let me know”

My sister is great and I was immediately talking to her about gender stuff once I began seriously questioning again. I actually just got off a phone call with her right before I made that post on this com that brought me into tracha and eventually here.

Thinking about the time I texted my sister “okay but what if I was trans” one evening, and then the next morning followed it up with a good 'ol “lol nvm.”

And now here we are like a year later.

Everything I own is transitioning with me. I’ve noticed I use she/her for all of my inanimate belongings now

I really wish I lived in a world where the rizzler was on jimmy fallon. Idk why this is on the mind.

I tried looking around on YouTube for voice stuff but I wasn’t really sure what I was looking for, and I’m scared of hurting myself. I’m not really sure how to do it safely. Are there any resources you would specifically recommend?

Your area must have a much better relationship with math than mine. I and so many of my peers learned FOIL as the way you multiply binomials, with no discussion as to why. Math ed where I’m from is littered with this kind of thing. It’s incredibly frustrating.

I have never once realized I was being flirted with. Every single time I’ve become privy to that knowledge it’s been after the fact when someone else told me what was happening. I’m so goddamn oblivious.

I almost need people to stop mid flirt with a “just so you know, this is flirting.”

It’s too late. The hate train has left the station. Forgive me for doxxing myself as I send a selfie of myself on my way to fuck your shit up

As long as I get dibs I’m happy

Disclaimer: please do not misconstrue this reply as evidence that I do not hate your guts. I definitely still do