Sick of looking up how to make desktop Linux behave in a certain way and having to read endless smug comments from Linux nerds asking WHY anyone would want to do such a thing, as if the typical behavior for that specific distro was the standard across Linux in general, nevermind the 98~% of computers running windows/Mac os
It’s one of the most ADHD things I’ve ever read. If a diagnosis is possible I recommend it.
What mine (m1 pro, 16gb ram, has fans) is good at:
What it’s bad at
They’re cool devices. I’ve been a longtime laptop hater but I’m happy with mine. Yes you do need the 16gb ram upgrade that they will rip you off for. Get a pro model if you think you’ll need active cooling, but my fans rarely turn on.
I went unmedicated for 30 years. A few things I found that worked:
Exercise Having a consistent exercise schedule helps so much with energy and mood management. Keeping myself on a constant energy baseline during the day without constant up/down spikes really alleviated ADHD symptoms in the workplace. I did mostly resistance training with occasional cardio.
Strict scheduling / using a planner This worked in the last few years but it required a level of emotional maturity and self-belief to utilise properly. You need to believe it is necessary to follow this schedule to the best of your ability but also not put yourself down for getting behind and missing tasks. For a long time I would inevitably fall behind at some point and start hating myself and get stuck in a zero productivity hole.
Working conditions This is by FAR the hardest to control but it made the most difference. I never fit into a 9-5 unmedicated but I did well at a job where I could do all my work after midnight as long as it was completed in time. I would do what I wanted to during the day and then start getting all my work done from the evening. If you are the opposite and prefer mornings then the other way round might be better but the same overall idea still applies.
I can only do Morrison’s and I know they’re not everywhere, unless you know a place I can purchase from that doesn’t require a UK phone number.
I will DM you about it.
To be clear - I’d be willing to contribute to this. Cash is a no go but I’ve made purchases from Amazon and other US retailers online before so it should be OK.
I have to jump through so many hoops to send cash to US comrades so I can’t help with day to day stuff.
However - and you can tell me if I’m out of line here - have you considered creating an amazon wishlist on a burner account and sharing it here? That way you definitely get the specific goods you need without worrying about money management. Stuff like the sleeping bag and clothes you mentioned.
I really want to help but I cannot use any of the apps internationally. It would have to be a bank transfer with wise or equivalent so you’d have to provide a lot of personal details. If this works for you, you can DM me.
I would buy it for pets if they required meat but I would never consume it myself.
I just remembered Shadows of Doubt, I think that’s the most recent game with this system that I’ve played. It has proc gen cities where every citizen has a job and a sometimes spontaneous daily routine. Every few days a citizen will murder another one and leave behind a trail of evidence. It’s supposed to hit 1.0 this month as well.
Very raw and buggy in places but in ways that leads to more hilarious outcomes. You hide in a freezing vent waiting for someone to head out to the club for them to apparently decide nah not tonight 2 seconds after leaving the building and catch you in the middle of reading their emails.
I think about Oblivion and it’s NPC scheduling far too often. It feels like the missing piece in otherwise amazing games like Deus Ex MD or Pathologic 2.
I remember MGS V had elements of this. Guards would patrol, be relieved at certain times, there was scheduled transports of prisoners and resources. If you knocked out an entire base of guards at night eventually the morning shift would turn up and start waking them up, putting the base on alert.
Geopolitics is just a map painting game to these people. When your borders are bigger thats good. Why would you not want your borders to be bigger? Graduated from Total War university with a PhD in Medieval 2 crusade strategies.
I cannot agree with the idea of them being the “same thing”. Potentially related? High cormorbidity? Sure.
I have AuDHD and the two have been in conflict my entire life. Since I began medication for ADHD I’ve finally begun to understand how my autism actually presents and that I can comfortable live with it.
Before this I constantly encountered executive dysfunction because the two have been completely opposed.
A special interest? A desire to understand something on an extremely detailed level? An important work project that I’m both motivated to complete and will help advance my career?
Nope here’s an overwhelming urge to do literally anything else, we got the happy brain feeling from starting that, it’s been 5 minutes and it’s time to chase a new one.
Even sensory overload or uncomfortable feelings. Hey you want to be reminded of the time you touched something gross when youre trying to fall asleep? Or the time you ate something and it made you feel sick. Or the most anxiety inducing sound on loop in your brain. Since I started medication these intrusive thoughts have stopped almost entirely. ADHD was turning the most uncomfortable aspects of my autism against me for absolutley no personal gain.
I have autism, I need a set schedule to function. The kind of wishy-washy with time system you describe would be hell for me.
Having autism AND add/adhd is indeed hell. Needing to live on a set schedule while using a wishy-washy time system.
I make a meltdown post on hexbear, delete it shortly after, scream into the void and then play hexcraft for 8 hours straight.
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I did the opposite and made a well spaced out organised city where noone could get to work on time, so it’s time for me to learn the ins and outs of transit and travel time or embrace the shitbox I guess.
I was in a very similar place for most of the past year, and I’m not entirely out of it. Some of those feelings have gone away, but others have not. I didn’t get things back together by myself, it was the support of others that allowed me to start healing.
I hope things will get better for you, and this community (including me) is here for anything you need to keep going and start moving towards a better place. If you just want to talk, for someone to listen, people to play games with or whatever helps take your mind off things or helps you work through everything please reach out. That includes material assistance too.
I can’t give advice without specifics of where you are but please feel free to post in !mutual_aid@hexbear.net if you are struggling to pay for essentials.
By this point in the story I thought Dutch was all dried out with no sauce, but the oil baron and Angelo Bronte made me think he just might pull it back.