here for a good time, not a long time. chicago, il 🍻

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Cake day: April 12th, 2024

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  • Yes, totally been there! It fucking sucks, as you know. I hate exercising but I try & do it most days bc I gained weight in the last year. I’m not happy with myself, but who can change that? Only me. No one else is gonna do it for me. Same with trying to go sober. When I look back at workouts done in the last week, it makes me feel a little better to see the progress bc some is better than none. I physically don’t want to be this way & I have the ability to change it, so fuck it, why not? Maybe it is pointless, but @ least I gave it a shot.

    I miss my friends, as well. Everyone has a family now or is far away. I struggle with the whole “why should I reach out to them if they haven’t reached out to me” dilemma. Whatever, nothing matters anymore so let me just send a text and let them know I’m thinking of them. Should an organic hang out session manifest, then so be it. If it doesn’t, then meh, at least they know I was thinking of them.

    We have nothing but time to waste until the inevitable end. Whether you choose to watch the same shows over and over (high-five bc I do the same), or meet up w ppl you actually like, or read a new book, it doesn’t matter. It’s really fucked but it’s the truth 🤷🏼‍♀️

    I hope you reach your bottom soon bc there’s nowhere to go from there, but 🆙 I hit mine 3 weeks ago & things haven’t been too bad since. Always around if you need to bend an ear. Good luck 🍀