i just meant i was soaking them, but holy shit you are really making beans from scratch

making beans

I wish America a very die

update:

☑︎ flat tire
☑︎ call doctor

i think it’s funny that “dolores” replied to a post about pain

![sicko-yes](https://www.hexbear.net/pictrs/image/72ee2a95-169b-4bb8-9be3-167e42f4d5d1.png "emoji sicko-yes")

putting up with being shuffled around and coached constantly.

the secret ingredient is drugs

it’s still legal folks

gay

real

seasonal

Roughest week in a good couple of months. I had several days where I would just get stuck in bed for hours, basically just eating sandwiches, and no exercise. One day I had a little porn binge, but no more than that day. Didn’t repair my flat tire. I’m trying not to be too hard on myself but I’m also wary because if I let this slide it could easily get worse. I’m going to call the doctor tomorrow to revise my medication which is literally making me more depressed.

you’re saying Maurice … slowed down …

Crushposting:

I hadn’t really considered that if I tell my crush directly, they would 99% tell their friend anyways. In the end they will both find out. So if I talk to the friend first, I at least get to hear their advice before I talk to my crush, as well as the friend of course potentially giving me a clean out with my crush completely unbothered.

This is your brain on love, kids: unable to make the most basic logical connections for months on end. Don’t do drugs!

I think most people misunderstand it as “fit” meaning having a lot of muscle, which isn’t necessarily advantageous in all situations.

Crushposting:

I was obsessing the entire last night, thinking “I really need to make literally any progress” and then when I met their friend today, my thought was like “nah, they’re too busy with their own problems, I don’t want to bother them at this moment”. And it’s true that they indeed have their own problems right now, but everyone will always have some problems at any time, and I sure didn’t make literally any progress today, which means I will likely obsess the entirety of this night as well. Fun times!

Plus that other org member who was annoying towards my crush is creating new mostly unrelated drama, and I feel like either I’m the worst suited or the best suited to figuring out how to read that situation. Mostly they just have bad vibes, but I also can’t shake the feeling that they’re a bit ⚠️ aggressive and don’t respect boundaries ⚠️. I don’t have any proof and it’s all just vibes (but isn’t vibes all there is to go by until it’s too late!?) and I might be hypervigilant because of my own crush but that’s how the situation is and I hate it.

Toastify is awesome!

I see it this way: the bear website kept me relatively sane in my worst periods. If I only had reddit/twitter/fb/etc my brain would have turned to mush as I lost all hope in humans. It’s only because I still have some sanity left that I am now able to make a tentative attempt at making irl friends.

warm