I wish you luck on your journey. I know it’s not always easy.
This is how I feel about it. When I did try alcoholic drinks I just didn’t like the taste of alcohol.
I recommend Nier Replicant ($23.99 USD) of Nier Automata ($19.99 USD) if anyone hasn’t played them. You can play them in any order, although chronologically Replicant comes first.
This is FF15 to me.