CommunistBear [he/him]

$800,000 over one month.

I really need a new job

Once again I’m proud to stand with the communists on the ground

This week has been a mixed bag for me. I had a few days where I didn’t drink at all. I also had a few days where I started drinking basically as soon as I woke up and didn’t stop until I fell asleep. Falling off the wagon is difficult because all of my worst habits feel like they got dialed up an extra notch or two. I’ve been entertaining the idea of smoking weed again to stop drinking but I can’t tell if I’m just deluding myself to start smoking weed again after ~8 months. On one hand, when I smoke I don’t drink anymore and I’m genuinely worried that I need the assistance. On the other hand, is this just falling off the wagon v2? I guess I’ll see how well I do this week to know if I need the help or not.

On a positive note: I’ve been lifting more. I often forget how strong I actually am. Turns out having a physically demanding job just naturally builds muscle over time. I weighed myself at 195 the other day, which is the most I’ve literally ever weighed. Most of my gains are probably liquor weight and cooking at home more. But I still have a 4 pack bordering on a 6? I still have cum gutters? I just need to get my shit together on the drinking and keep lifting and I’ll be my goal of a Communist himbo.

Excuse me, it’s Her turn

they zapped your boss

I would greet them as liberators

And my vote for Claudia becomes even easier

Love a good news day

The thing I urge everyone who still believes in “Western Values”: Kill the America that exists in your mind. It has never existed. It was always a PR move. It was always brutality with a thin veneer of “humanity” attached.

I’ve already started my physical training

Just waiting on your recovery comrade

and then PR nukes Washington

I’ll drive

Instead of equine therapy it’ll be riding in a technical with general maintenance

Riding a bike throughout Chicago has its difficult parts but generally speaking it’s a pretty pleasant experience. Riding my bike to Chinatown remains my absolute favorite summer activity. Good food, some boba tea, and a beautiful summer day are hard to beat.

I’ve listened to it 4-5 times now and I’m still digesting it. So far I do like it but I definitely want to read the lyrics more fully and let it sit for a bit.

This week was pretty good. While not fully back on the wagon I was pretty limited with my drinking. No more starting at 7am and continuing on all day. I didn’t drink at all a few days and then only drank in social settings in the times I did drink.

I helped a friend of mine film a movie. The process was really interesting to see in person. I would love to do more stuff like that since interacting with so many new people was really good for my brain.

I also started lifting again this week. My legs are currently jello from squatting. On top of being bigger and stronger in a general sense, one of my goals is to have a thick, dump truck of an ass just to frustrate the various hetero women and gay men in my life. This is endlessly funny to me

The first volcel honeypot

Me and my chronic back pain relate very hard