Ananasova [she/her]

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Cake day: September 23rd, 2023

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    1. Manga
    2. Slice of life, romance, school life
    3. Kanojo ni Naritai Kimi to Boku (The Woman You Are and Me). This is manga about trans girl Akira Yonezawa and her friends. Hime Sakuragaike, another main character, is a cis girl who have been friends with Akira since childhood and she is secretely in love with Akira. Hime was the only person who knew that Akira is a girl for a few years but then Akira decided to live full-time as girl and started wearing female uniform in school because of this classmates started making fun of her which made Hime angry. To support her friend, Hime decided to wear male uniform in school. That’s how the story starts. The manga explores gender issues not only from trans perspective but from cis as well, how gender stereotypes might be harmful for everyone. Sexual/romantic attraction is also a theme of this manga, Hime fell in love with Akira before she came out, she still loves her but it makes her confused, there is also aroace character who tells about their experience. The manga is overall pretty wholesome and easy to read but there is some drama moments. I think it’s a good story about trans person, as a trans myself i relate to Akira, i think if you are cis and want to learn more about trans experience this manga is good for you too!
    4. Rating: GOOD

    1. Anime
    2. Slice of life, drama, music band
    3. Yoru no Kurage wa Oyogenai (Jellyfish Can’t Swim in the Night). I will just copy synopsis from MAL and then add my own note about trans character.

    Mahiru Kouzuki, a skilled artist, gives up on her passion after her elementary school classmates ridicule her colorful jellyfish mural. Several years later, upon encountering an unexpected admirer in Kano Yamanouchi—a former idol with a troubled past—Mahiru decides to pursue her childhood dreams once more. Tasked with designing the mascot for Kano’s new music project, JELEE, Mahiru enlists the help of her childhood friend and professional streamer Kiui Watase to make JELEE’s first music video. Together with Kim Anouk Mei Takanashi, a pianist and fan of Kano’s work as an idol, the girls aim to turn JELEE into a global hit. However, if they want to succeed in this ambitious endeavor, they will first have to free themselves from the shackles of their pasts.

    So, Kiui Watase is AFAB but they use male or NB character as vtuber model to stream. It’s a bit unclear if Kiui is transmasc or non-binary, the show never said what pronouns they prefer, so that’s why i use they/them. Kiui doesn’t like that people judge them by their appearance, it shows thorought out the anime. There is one scene that is especially memorable, it’s culmination of Kiui’s story, they said on public how they feel about their identity, it’s a short one but very powerful. The anime isn’t primary focused on Kiui or their gender identity but it’s part of the story, you won’t have the same story if you remove Kiui identity, I think it’s good representation.

    1. Rating: GOOD

    1. Anime
    2. Supernatural, suspense, thriller, drama
    3. Wonder Egg Priority. The anime deals with very heavy topics, the main theme is suicide. Main characters helps those who commit suicide in their afterlife to overcome their trauma by fighting with demons/monsters. Usually these monsters are people who traumatized them. Each main character also lost someone in their life which affects them a lot. This show deals with topics like: bullying, loneliness, shut-in/hikikomori, gender dysphoria, physical violence to minors. But despite all of this the anime doesn’t have only dark side, there are a good moments too that can make you smile, the main characters were lonely but they becomes friends and they just having fun spending time together. There is a lot of mysteries in show that becomes clears later on, it keeps you want to continue watching. However, not everything becomes clear. The ending made me confused, it feels rushed and leaves you with a lot of unanswered questions. Seems like authors wanted to make more episodes or make another season? It feels unfinished to me. So what about trans representation? I already mentioned gender dysphoria theme. One of the main characters, Momoe, is a trans girl (the show doesn’t explicity says that but there is a lot of signs). She is often being mistaken as a boy because of her androgynous appearance and she is popular with girls but it doesn’t make her happy because most of them think that she is a boy. Despite this the main group of characters accept her as girl although initially they misgenred her by mistake. The anime shows depict gender dysphoria very well, as someone who is early on HRT, lives in stealth and doesn’t have pass, it’s very relatable. What impress me in Momoe is that she can confidently say that she is a girl even in close to death, dangerous situations, she just says “I am a girl!” and it really inspire me because I am still strugling myself calling myself girl out loud. There is also a transmasc character but I won’t tell much about him because of spoilers, only will say that he is cool too!
    4. GOOD beginning and middle parts, MEH ending

    P.S. originally anime aired with 12 episodes, the 13 episode came out later separetely, I watched all of them, so what i said is related to all 13 episodes.








  • my problem with demons is their lore. It’s the only thing that makes me uncomfortable in Frieren. They are intelligent beings but unlike other races like humans, dwarfes and elves, they are born evil. And in this anime, if you doubt that all demons are monsters that should be purged, you will be punished by rules of this world. I don’t like it. This is imaginary world, you can set it up how you want but for some reason the creators of manga/anime decided to create a world where some beings are just simply evil by nature and must be eliminated. I would like if in Frieren world, demons would be something that people become, like by solding their soul to dark forces or something. In that case i wouldn’t be having a problem with them. Also, to be fair, this problem isn’t unique to Frieren, a lot of fantasy stories has the same problem. But i was hoping that there wouldn’t be such thing in Frieren :(





  • Kanojo ni Naritai Kimi to Boku - is short but heartwarming manga about trans girl Akira who is early in her transition. She has a childhood friend Hine who supports her no matter what. Since Akira decided to be presented as girl full time she got a lot of attention and Hime decided to help her friend by crossdressing as a boy. I like this manga because it’s literally about trans person and it’s not denied unlike in many other manga where character swap their gender, they enjoy it but they are still cis™ tho.









  • There is a lot of variations of this question. One that helped me was about button that changes your body in the way you want it to be but doesn’t make everyone forgot your past instead it makes them accept your new presence. I would press the button in that case and this answer made me realise that i am not afraid of changes in my body and overall appearance, i am just afraid to be rejected. So my point is that those questions might not fit for everyone and that’s absolutely valid but it might help someone in exploration of their identity.



  • i have pretty big plans for this year

    • finally start HRT, it’s my priority number one, and i really really really hope i will manage to do that
    • keep making friends with other trans people trans-heart, before 2023 ended i met with local trans folks from my town, and it was the first time ever i met someone like me irl, i was very shy and didn’t talk much but i hope next time we meet i will be more open, i also have trans friends that i met online, unfortunately we wouldn’t be able to meet irl soon because we are from different countries but i can spend time with them online and i want to do that more often. Also it’s seems that there is a lot of lovely people here on hexbear, i am not very active here but i hope i can fix that, maybe i will find new friends here!
    • come out to my older brother and maybe to some other people, it’s the hardest goal and i am very scared to do that but i hope i have enough bravery for this and everything will be alright, if my brother will accept me it will make me so happy, i love him but we are becoming more distant from each other because i have to hide my identity, it would be amazing if i will be able to be myself with him
    • be consistent with voice training: i started voice training a few times but i keep abandoning it and this makes me feel bad trans-sad so i am gonna to do exercises right now!