I’ve been on a medical LOA since last year and tomorrow I go back to work and I keep thinking about how almost all my coworkers I knew are gone and processes have changed. Also that if I do something wrong I might injure myself again and be right back where I was a year ago (I have been cleared for full job duties by my doctor).

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      It’s a change in your reality and it’s a shift in your perspective to have this all happen at once. But beware looking back and bullying yourself. You are who your are and always have been, a label like ADHD won’t change you. Remember yo appreciate yourself even in tough times

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      I also lost my father around the same time that I found out I was diagnosed ADHD (actually misdiagnosed I later found out) and my brain was racked between taking care of my mother and trying to get through it myself. And then in top of all that, the anxiety of going through everyday life wondering if I’ve lost the chance to be who I wanted to be.

      The only thing that helped me was telling my close friends what was going on and how much I felt like everything was crushing me. I did end up on medication for bi-polar 1 which has helped me stay more focused without feeling low.

      I’m sorry for your loss my friend.

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      I don’t want to know what it feels like on them, and from them learn what I’ve missed my whole life, learn what functional really is.

      What kind of sunk-cost fallacy bullshit is this? Do you want 30 good years, or 70 shit ones? You are literally mid-life. And you think you should spend the back half of it suffering too because that’s better somehow?