Been into sissy porn, captions, etc for a few years. Ever since the pandemic I started to consume more porn and started to really crave being a sissy, suck a cock and being fucked. It got to the point where I opened a kik and started flirting with men online to make them cum.
Given how much fun and horny that made me I finally caved and decided to get grindr, message a few men until one made me feel safe enough and we agreed to meet up on his lunch break. He came over, pulled his cock out, I got on my knees and began to suck. I was a proper porn whore, his cock was all sloppy from my spit by the time he finished in my mouth and I drank it all.
I’m not exactly having regrets but I also don’t feel anything in particular. Like it felt hollow, my cock never even got hard during the blow job (though I did make a wet spot in my panties). I don’t know if I just hyped it up too much in my head because of all the hypno and captions saying I would feel addicted. So now I’m just wondering if I really am a sissy or this was just a fantasy that should be kept online. Any opinions or insights are appreciated
It’s normal not to get hard. How long has it been since the experience? It’s normal to feel this way too. You figure out what you like. Give it time. Maybe you’re horny for dick again later and it’s more fun the second time. Hypno is over-exaggeration. It’s hot in the moment but you can’t take any of it seriously. Real life’s always different :)
It’s been about 4 and a half hours now. I do think I simply over hyped it and bought into all the hypno and captions. Put the imagined experience on a pedestal and when it wasn’t that, it was like it all came crashing down.
Nah you’re overthinking it. Give it a couple days. Likely the memory of it all settles better than how it’s feeling now. For me it was the same way. After sucking my first cock I felt weird and like not excited but as time went on I felt better about the whole thing. To the point where I’m craving it again 🥵