Over the last 2 years, I’ve noticed that I spend WAY more time carefully cataloguing my collections of digital media (games, anime) than actually experiencing those media.
I would spend months carefully renaming the files, grouping them into folders by franchise, creating watch order files, remuxing videos so they would only have one audio and one subtitle file, reencoding videos that I considered bloated, reencoding videos that had flac or 5.1 audio to opus stereo, putting all my files into a spreadsheet along with other information, etc. etc.
Today I realized that my obsession is pointless. I’m just wasting my life doing something that’s not enjoyable, instead of experiencing the media I’ve collected. Who am I making those neat-looking catalogues for? I will never pass on my collection to anyone. I am just lost in my unhealthy obsession instead of enjoying life.
So yeah. Today I’ve decided to stop wasting my time. I will keep archiving (because I believe that in the future, the governments will make it very difficult to share copyrighted media online), but I will stop trying to make my collection look nice and tidy.
I will also delete stuff that I’ve watched/played that I didn’t enjoy. I’ve come to a realization there’s no point archiving it if I’m never going to use it again.
Anyways, I hope this helps someone realize that obsessions with cataloguing your hoards are unhealthy and a waste of life.
If you did it that long, you probably on some level enjoy the busy work. You might just be burnt out. I know when something needs fixing on a software level I can spend infinite time just trying to fix it. Way more than I’d ever use said software too.
Or maybe I’m just a rare case of a person who realizes that our time on this Earth is limited, and spending hundreds of hours doing OCD stuff is a complete waste of life.
Fun fact, this post comes off way more OCD than any amount of time cataloguing. Like not “OCD enough to be a one-post diagnosis,” but still more. Because actually, OCD isn’t about keeping things neat. It’s quite often the opposite, like for example intentionally alienating a social group ^_^
i don’t think either of you know much about OCD
How old are you? I’ve been having an existential crisis too.
Sooooo… What will you do next?
“I’m just a rare case o-” 8 billion people on this planet youre not a rare fucking anything, blow me. This is the quickest turnover of a post going from “Oh this has a sweet sentiment if a bit pretentious” to “Oh ok the OP is so self obsessed he jacks off exclusively into a mirror”